Delmarya Fier loved being a vampire. Just kidding, except not really kidding? Her thoughts on everything vampire-related were complicated, from her cravings for plasma instead of “normal” food to her affinity for sunlight.
Nonetheless, she was extremely happy (as long as she kept certain thoughts tucked away). She loved that she hardly needed to sleep and that as a child of the moon, her abilities were even more powerful at night.
She’d also found someone to rave about Sulani with her, her boyfriend ♡. Zach lived on Mua Pel’am and loved all Sulani’s islands as much as she did. By moon or sunlight, he was always stoked to swim in the ocean or walk the beach with her.
Together, they examined the caves, studied the ocean life, cleaned up the shores, and swam.
They also did a few other things.
But then Deli would abruptly notice something that ruined the mood, like Zach trying to hide his shivering. It had been cold? She hadn’t realized.
At times like this, she felt more like her father’s daughter than she wanted—how long had she been unaware that it was uncomfortably cold? Zach always tried to be considerate of her, so what should she say or do now? She didn’t know because she didn’t understand temperature in the same way that most humans did. She needed a thermometer, but suggested that he go inside at any rate…
Still, she reasoned that this kind of stuff was relatively easy to fix. She could pay more attention and figure it out. Could she figure out how to handle everyone aging and dying before she did? She didn’t have the same confidence and that was the problem that dared to rise (figuratively screaming) from wherever she’d tucked it every time some slightly related but infinitely more insignificant thing bothered her. Her parents had each other… She was afraid that her older vampire siblings weren’t as okay with things as they seemed.
Deli didn’t want to ruin the present with thoughts of an undetermined future, but sometimes it was difficult not to. She knew her father would tell her to not hold back and to live bravely, experiencing everything she wanted with her mortal siblings and with Zach, but that had the potential to be dangerously soul-crushing and working hard to transform every moment into an indelible memory was burdensome too.
Back home, Elmire, who thought very highly of Deli, began interrogating her sister about music, because Deli had casually snagged a Starlight Accolade for a song she’d written on the guitar and she had a different perspective from their father and Elmire’s teachers. Elmire was curious about more than just music, though.
She asked about being a vampire. Deli told her to go read a book about it. She wasn’t going to talk about it.
Elmire: Oh… okay.
Ninja Pink SexMarch 19, 2022 at 12:19 am
I love her enthusiasm and love for the island, and how she found someone to love and share that enthusiasm. She seems to really love being a vampire, so I wonder if she’ll want to remain one since she’s struggling with the mortality of others/ones she loves.
Great story 👏🏻
HaneulMarch 19, 2022 at 10:46 pm
Thanks for the comment! You’re right – she likes being a vampire, so she may not make decisions about becoming human for a very long time (if at all).
Snow ~March 19, 2022 at 6:56 am
For some reason WordPress Reader won’t let me comment on this but my regular browser will : S
Poor Zach, interrupting the moment with shivering : p At least he’s trying! I think for a moment there Deli also reminded me of Asher in the sense that she wanted to help Zach, but couldn’t relate which made it difficult- reminded me of how sometimes Asher wants to do his best as a father but just doesn’t quite understand the needs of others sometimes.
That must be painful for Deli, although she’s trying to see the pros of vampire life that’s always going to be lingering- that she will outlive friends and the people she loves. It must always be on her mind to some degree when she’s with Zach even when she tries to quiet those thoughts.
Poor Elmire. She probably doesn’t realise she’s asked about a currently-sensitive topic for Deli.
HaneulMarch 19, 2022 at 10:58 pm
Thanks for letting me know that something’s weird with the WordPress reader. It seems to be okay now, so I hope the issues are fixed.
Zach seems very sweet and self-sacrificing, but Deli definitely has some problems that she can’t easily solve or solve at all.
For better or worse, she really is her father’s daughter and it must be unnerving to be caught off guard and unable to relate (but Asher doesn’t always have good intentions).
Elmire will be fine at least regarding this (hopefully). She’s resilient and even outside of Deli being a vampire and literally telling her to go read a book (which I somehow didn’t screencap) — it’s almost impossible to never become annoyed by a younger sibling, especially if they ask a million questions.
sims_YimiMarch 19, 2022 at 3:23 pm
Oh! There’s a new one! WordPress is acting weird and not telling me that there was a new chapter o.o
Being perfectly happy as long as you forcibly shut “certain thoughts” away doesn’t sound perfectly happy, Deli. It sounds like you’re trying to force-fit into a role you’re not completely down with. Or maybe like what she really wants is to have her cake and eat it too? She’s powerful enough to have the best of both worlds without too many downsides, but the downsides that are still there are significant – if you’re bothered by them.
Aw, Deli. I can relate to being bothered by insignificant things because they brush against something way larger that you’re still grappling with. This is a really tough one to make up your mind about. But shoving it into a corner and hoping it fades away isn’t the answer. I’m a massive hypocrite there because I tend to do the same, but it’s always easier to see it in others than in ourselves, no? 😆
HaneulMarch 20, 2022 at 5:20 pm
I hope the issues I’ve been having with WordPress Reader are fixed now.
I think you’re onto something about Deli wanting to have her cake and eat it too. Shoving her issues into a corner and hoping they fade away is a questionable way to handle things and definitely implies less than “perfect happiness”, but there may not be a solution that leads to perfect happiness. Still, it’s kind of a luxurious problem to have since most people don’t possess vampiric powers or an option to choose not to have them.